Learning to Sex a Hamster

I'm sorry I haven't update much lately. I guess I'm just super lazy these days and can't fit a post in between naps. I've been wearing a lot of sweatpants though so I guess that has something to do with it. Who knows? I just got some hamsters. They've been mating a lot though so I guess I should be expecting baby hamsters any day now. Kayla told me all about that. She is very wise when it comes to domestic rodents... and a plethora of other things. I can't tell you how happy I am that she agrees to be my friend. Some days I just don't know what I would do without her. Also her sense of fashion is amazing. Thats probably the real reason I haven't been blogging much, I'm just so intimidated by her ability to write. Oh well, I have to go feed my hamsters.

And I notice she's your lover but she's nowhere near your heart

Last night was pretty fun.
Started off boring, until I remembered about a 5 dollar barnes and nobles gift card I found in Andrew's room. All the sudden a lightbulb came on in my head. Me and Andrew threw our jackets on and headed to redding. First, we went to best buy, to see if they would fix his car stereo. There was a guy around his early 20's sitting outside of it on a bench asking people for change. actually, he wasn't really asking, he was more like stating the sentence " got change."
over and over again, extremely monotone. After Andrew and I got in the car, I really felt bad about not giving this guy any money, but I was kind of afraid, and Andrew said he was on drugs and would just spend the money on drugs. But If I were to give him money, then it would be his money to spend on what he wanted, hopefully not drugs, but I couldn't exactly tell him what to do with it. After pondering it for a few minutes, I decided I should definetly give him a few dollars. But Andrew wouldn't turn around. Then, we passed up the infamous kohls and went to the petshop. I found a guineu pig that Im in love and that I'm pretty sure feels the same way about me, but I was not allowed to buy it. After that we went to the mall and I bought a sweet blue sweatshirt from AE (thanks Kayla!) and then Barnes and Nobles. I'm pretty sure I could stay all day in that bookstore and never get bored. I bought the book " Memoirs of a Boy Soldier" It's really good so far. It's about this boy who lived in Sierra Leone until his village and other surronding villages were attacked by rebels. Eventually, he gets put into the army at the age of 13 and it's just really intense. After that we went to my new favorite spot called Strings, the new italian cafe kind of next to but not in discovery village. It was a good night. I just got kicked off of my own phone by a 7 year old girl who lives down the street who apparently needed to make a very important phone call. She's very persuasive.



Later

This is one more late night basement song

You know those girls you love to not like?
Well, I have those. They're so frustrating, I've never seen them be nice to anyone, not even their friends. Sometimes I just want to yell at them and hope they get the picture, and maybe they'll start being a little bit nicer. Then I found out some news today, and I realized that their lives are not perfect. It may not give them an excuse to be jerks to people, but that doesn't mean I should be a jerk back. I really need to step back and examine a situation before I just jump to conclusions. Sometimes, what I need is to be just a little more humble and open minded. I want to dedicate my life to people who have been hurt or mistreated or misunderstood, and come to find out I don't really know what that means. Sometimes you have to look past people's flaws to see the good, and I'm pretty sure they all have a good.


On another topic, I have no idea what I want to do when I graduate. Part of me wants to go to Shasta College and then transfer to a four year university, part of me wants to take a year off and join the peace corps, ( I'm not kidding) and then go to college, or go to Shasta for 2 years then join the peace corps then go to a university. I'm very undecisive.
And, what the heck am I doing with my life?
I know I want to be a preschool teacher, but I also want to work for the UN and can you do both those things at the same time?


Anyways, that's the most I've ever written I think.
Peace.

Send your words past your lips or keeps them safe behind your teeth, but the wrong words will strand you

True love can't be described as " true love" it's not a word, it's just a feeling.
It's when your heart beats so hard you think it's gonna jump out of your chest and your so head over heels , your floating on clouds and it's just such an amazing feeling and your eyes sparkle and even your bad days are good because, after all, your in love.
How does anyone really know what love is? Isn't it just when you have fun with that person, no matter what your doing, isn't it all about being with who makes you laugh, and so what if they've made you cry a few times.
I'm a child, I don't know what love is.
I just want to doodle hearts all over my paper and smile.
a lot.